As Long As You Are On The Journey

Last night was another night that I stayed up late till half way to the dawn. I kept reckoning, there are so many things I needed to do, I wanted to do, from learning Italian, to find a job or internship, to read news and blogs, to write my own blogs and manage my website and pages, and I have a part time job at Busforfun.com that demands one hour a day from my time, sounds not much but you need to take the time to sit down and focus on a total different world since I'm doing marketing in Chinese for them. And at the beginning of the year I made the plan of reading 50 books, first 3 months I was right on track, for a few weeks I was even ahead of my schedule, but right now I'm five books behind schedule according to goodreads.com. Well there are always so many things to catch up, to chase after in life. 

Let's Talk About Meditation - My OSHO Meditation Experience And My Thoughts On Meditation

"Do not think of anything, empty your mind and just rest" said my uncle to me. We sat shoulder to shoulder with hands placing on our knees, our eyes closed.

After a while I responded: "But I can't, there's always something in my mind, if I clear this away, that will pop up, it's no use to try it..."

That was my uncle trying to teach me to meditate when I was a kid. Obviously it failed because I could not not think of anything, it's frustrating to make even the attempt because you may end up sitting there 15 minutes just thinking about what snacks you want to eat while trying not to have any thoughts or ideas in mind. 

A Thought on Death/ The Nature of Inexistence

When I was a kid, there was one night that understood what death means, that I remember so well, the dreadful feeling of the horrible understanding of eternal unknown and unawareness. 
The concept of death is the opposite state of being alive, but since we only experience "alive", there's no way to tell what is like behind the curtain of life, that makes it so fascinating and terrifying at the same time. 
Consciousness is a living thing, anything from the death side is unperceivable to our brain. Not just death, but also the unknown, remains unknown, the inexistence remains inexistence because there's no way for us to perceive them. 
Is there a way to explore the unknown? That's a too bald attempt. Maybe there's a way to invent a code for everything on the other side of living. Is there logic, physics, love beyond this world?

Death: all unperceivables subtracts the unknown yet exists, equals to inexistence. Death equals to inexistence. 
By discussing inexistence do I imply that inexistence actually exists, since anything subject to a discussion must exist?
No. If existence is one dimension, then inexistence would be second dimension, it does not "exist" but it is implied to "be there" while talking about existence. A dimension is not an existence, a dimension is a premise to allow us to label and discuss the difference among things(and "unthings"). 

Inexistence: undetectable, untouchable, intangible, untalkable, inherently comes with the concept "existence" due to the definition. 
Hypothesis: An inexistence is a combination of the states of being there and not being there, a self-defying concept. When you mention it, it appears to "exist", only because you talk about it as the opposite to existence, when you are not mentioning it, not thinking about it, not considering it, it will sink and dissolve. Existence has the power to bring "the property of existing" into "things" when we are talking about existence, if we do not talk about existence, inexistence wouldn't "exist", therefore, the property of existing of inexistence is eventually brought by existence, in another word, only existence makes existence exists. 
We can also think that it is our very thought that brought "inexistence" into life because there is nothing else other than intellectual brain able to grab the understanding of existence and go into a discussion and therefore reveal the "existence" of inexistence.
Therefore, if say existence is arguably the product of our brain, then "inexistence" is definitely, naturally the product of our brain. 
Therefore, the world without a observer/thinker would be a unified, pure existing state.